Thursday, September 3, 2015

I'm nervous... But that's normal, right?

Everyone gets a little nervous before a new baby comes, right? That's normal, right? Well, I wouldn't say I'm normal, but I am nervous. I'm definitely not looking forward to not sleeping for a solid two weeks. And I'm not looking forward to being so stretched to my physical and emotional limits that I can't even see straight.

I have a tendency to remember the worst parts of things (and people) instead of the best. You know when you go to a funeral and everyone remembers the jerk as a loving, caring, sweet and sensitive guy that everyone loved to be around? I'm the one that remembers how mean he was, and I'll share detailed stories.

But seriously, after those first few weeks and months eventually calm down (and I know they will), I know everything will be great. I'm looking forward to having two kids. I can't wait (or maybe I can) to see how Big Sister responds to Little Sister. I've had "Thing 1" and "Thing 2" shirts in my Amazon cart for months now. It's going to be great. Not at first, but eventually.

Mostly, I'll be glad I'll never be pregnant again! I have just less than three months to go, and already I can't wait to be done!

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

We used to have a life

You know, I used to have a life. I used to do stuff. I used to be more useful than this.

Sometimes, I remember what our/my life was like before there was a mini version of us. We had our routine, but we traveled, too. We saw movies in the theater. We could meet friends for frozen yogurt on a whim. We could drop everything and go somewhere on the spur of the moment. Naturally, we didn't normally (or ever, really) do that kind of thing, but we could've. It was an option. It was out there.

Now, going out takes a lot of planning, whether we're taking the Munchkin or not. Food. Drinks. Diapers. Toys. Blankets. Pacifiers. A stroller. Instructions for a babysitter. It's complicated and stressful and anxiety-inducing.

But it's the best thing, honestly. There are parts of the whole thing that I could definitely do without, but overall, we've worked out a great system now. Him and me. Me and The Munchkin. Him and The Munchkin. All three of us. It took MONTHS - and those were some long, very tiring, trying months, but it is so worth it. I wouldn't change anything.

For the record, I wasn't sure I wanted to have a second kid, but after we finally worked out our system and how we all interact, everything fell into place, and I'm really excited (and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous) about adventure #2: Peanut. I know it'll take months or even longer to adjust to a family of four instead of three, but I know well get there, and it'll work. Everything will be fine... Eventually... Assuming I survive the sleepless nights.

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Recent thoughts

It's been a while...
A lot has happened...

Today, at about 4.5 months (or 19 weeks and 3 days) pregnant, I managed to keep going on an elliptical for TWENTY minutes. You have to understand that we have an elliptical at home that I can't manage for even five minutes. And I'm not even exaggerating. It's pathetic.

Also pathetic: my cravings for things that are bad for me. Not just because I'm pregnant, either. Ugh. The last time I had a prenatal checkup (NOT with my normal doctor), the wench gave me a five minute lecture on my weight. Which always makes a pregnant woman feel amazing and wonderful and nothing negative... No pregnant woman would ever want to cut a bitch like that. Nooo...

I'm nervous: how is this while second kid thing supposed to go? I worry about everything: Leaving Katelyn with someone...  Bringing home an infant again... Sibling jealousy... Sleeplessness... I bet these are all very normal things in the world, but not in my world. Not yet, anyway.

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Let's have lunch

With too many of our friends, it's been way too long since we've hung out. Like this here - it's been too long. So I thought we could pretend that we're sitting down for a nice leisurely lunch - what a dream, right? What would we talk about? What do we need to catch up on?

I might start by telling you that I love my job, and I think it's going pretty well. I question whether some of my co-workers like me, but I think most are at least okay with me and the work I do, so that's great. I love writing and editing and formatting documents. I love everything I do at work. And I'm busy, which feels amazing and wonderful. I love looking forward to work because there's stuff to do! It makes me feel so energized!

After hearing me drone on about how I love my job (a job that I've discovered most people find extremely boring), I'd finally ask what you've been up to recently - anything new?

Depending on what you tell me, it might trigger my urge to tell you (and the rest of the works) that I'm training for a half, but I haven't been as great during this training cycle as I was for others, particularly my first. But it's going to be okay, I would tell you, because my A goal is just to finish and not die from the effort. I just want the finisher's medal. I want to turn all of my race medals into Christmas ornaments.

Inevitable, you'd ask about upcoming trips, because that's what we do: we travel. Is tell you that Tim has a business trip to Philadelphia, but if he thinks he's going without me and Katelyn, he's in for a surprise. And then we're going to Hawaii pretty late in the year. We're really anxious and excited about flying with the Munchkin. Diapers and strollers and everything else - this could be interesting.

So... What would YOU talk about over lunch?
Also: where are we going? You have to pick, because I drove.