I've been off of work for two and a half days now. This is my third day home. Honestly, I thought I'd have NOTHING to do, but it's not that way at all. My days are filled with naps, walks, bouncing on an exercise ball, watching TV and movies, eating, drinking, laundry, doing stuff in the kitchen, writing letters to my favorites, running errands, making dinner... I'm kinda busy!
Yesterday, I went for a walk FOUR times. I had TWO bouncy-ball sessions. And I had a whole mess of jalapenos on my taco salad. And just before bed: some pretty serious pressure and pain. I couldn't fall asleep for the contractions! It was almost exciting, like "this could be the day" type of feeling.
Today, I've walked TWICE (so far, but it's only just past noon); the first time was 1.2-ish miles, and the second was just over a half mile (I had to cut it short because it started raining - what I call "Valley spit," but what almost anyone else that lives around here would call a "downpour"). Anyway, it looked like it was picking up, and I didn't really feel like getting drenched. So there's that.
All six of these walks have been filled with weird and interesting moments. Today, I saw two grown men (both probably around 30 years old) under one of the gazebos at the park; one of them was scream-singing something like, "Dear Lord, take me away to a better place!" I got followed by a cute little boy around four years old. I saw Animal Control taking away a stray. I walked past an elementary school where kids were playing and laughing and squealing. Kids with their parents flying kites. Some kids playing "red rover."
Part of me just wants this whole thing to be over and done with; another part of me wants to never let it happen. I know it's just because I don't know what to expect. So I'm stuck in this dreadful in between place: I want it to be, and not be, at the same time.
I don't think this post has any kind of a point to it. I'm just thinking. And venting. And relaxing. And enjoying the sounds of rain. Maybe the next post will be a baby announcement...? Wish me luck!